INCOMPLETE ~

Muhammad Aydeen Zikri Bin Mohd Ezuan Haniff ~ our 3rd Zikri's

Currently baby Aydeen still in NICU HUKM for monitoring his sucking progress. Dah 9 hari. As been told by PAED DOC, Aydeen already off oxygen on day 2 and completed his antibiotic on day 4.. but Aydeen still kena tahan due his sukcing progress a bit slow.  Mayb coz Aydeen bb prem and belum cukup 36 weeks. But abgchik pun sama.. cuma tht time mama boleh DF abgchik hari² so abgchik cpt belajar sucking.. abgchik 34 weeks 3 days, abg didam 35 weeks 6 days while bb Aydeen 34 weeks 6 days. All my zikri's keluar awal sbb mama leaking.. 😥 but this time sgt² mencabar sbb mama and ayah tak boleh jumpa langsung dgn Aydeen.. mama cuma dpt dgr suara Aydeen crying time deliver and mama just dpt tgk sekejap time pengecaman jantina.. tu je.. 😭😭😭

~Mental down~

After 9 days mama still cant hold Aydeen, df Aydeen and even hear bb crying.  Ayah pun belum azan kan Aydeen..Mama cuma ada sekeping gambar Aydeen yg nurse curi² amk sbb mama hampir lost after 4 days Aydeen kt NICU.  Mama try to positively but still cant.. mama tak tau camne nak ckp.. 9 hari berpantang tanpa anak kt sisi.. seksa nya xtau nak habaq.. bengkak susu.. rengat berulang even dh mengurut.. nangis xyah ckp.. lg² klo duk sorg² .. i've try to control but still cannot okay.. dun ask me to sabar sabar.. coz word sabar tu dh mcm jd musuh. I'll stressed mengenang Aydeen yg sorg² kt nicu.. tdo sorg² nangis sorg² (even ada nurse..tp nurse pun ada keje kan) malam² mmg mama xleh tdo.. and 3 jam sekali mmg rutin mama pam susu utk ayah hantar pg² kt NICU.. 8 pack/day..

Today Aydeen already 36 weeks.. but mama belum dpt any news frm NICU.. 😞😞😞

Pls pray for my Aydeen cpt² keluar ye..